please, hate me
thoughts : 00:09
kalau kali ini aku pentingkan diri aku sendiri? salah ke? dulu, semuanya aku buang. dulu, i left them hanging. dulu, i do believe that i could handle all of this by myself. dulu, i dont give a shit bout what people said behind my back. dulu, i always said "its okay fy its fine youre stronger than you think youll be alright" even its hurt. i dont care. i just dont care anymore. but, when i saw her, it really hit me. her smile... i felt guilty. what if she knows? then what? am i responsible? kalau aku dekat tempat dia, ill be furious.
you gotta do something. think fy, think!
but then again, salah ke kalau kali ini aku pentingkan diri aku sendiri?
when you gotta do what you gotta do
"weh fy, teman aku study malam ni" -SAF
"okay. mana?"
"hmm mana best eh"
"kepci? peaceful sikit tapi kalau nak lama mekdi? ke 7e?"
"jadahnya 7e. mamak jea senang sikit haha"
"okay"
but then, few days later...
just because the mamak tutup (idk y), other kedai mamak was full of people and went to mcd but got kicked out so we had no other choice we went to...?
yup, 7e guys.
we literally did our discussion/assignment there!
epic 😂
thoughts : 02:29
tiba tiba rasa lebih baik aku pendam semua masalah aku daripada aku membebankan orang lain dengar cerita aku...
like they also got their own problem kan?
so kenapa aku nak tambah lagi?!
true or true?
tolong jangan misinterpret antara ganggu dan ambil berat
nukilan hari ini bukan nak merungut pasal sesiapa tapi hanya self reminder. kalau kau baca ini dan dapat input atau terkesan sampai ke otak maka, alhamdulillah. this is my blog anyway i write what i want and if you nak argue, do contact me. everything @fifyehaa
first of all, do highlight my title. bc this gonna be long explanation (maybe)
well, friendzone bukan satu benda yang baru. kalau kau pernah rasa, please know that it is okay. percayalah cakap aku benda itu adalah lesson terbaik untuk kau. jangan sedih. jangan bodoh jadi depress tak tentu pasal. don't take it the wrong way. be positive! take it as a mistake and perbaiki la.
how? ask yourself. what did i do wrong?
contoh la, si senah friendzone abu. abu sepatutnya tanya diri dia, mana silap aku? cari.
thats why you need a good friend / anyone who can advice you who can tell you what to do or instead of doing this you should do this and this tell her that this etc.
now, kita tolak tepi pasal physical. trust me, muka cantik tak bawa ke mana. muka buruk pun tak semestinya hati pun buruk.
make friends tu sangat penting. of course theres pros and cons. pepandai la kau handle. lain orang lain cara dia berkawan. and it doesn't matter kau bergaul dengan siapa. tapi. as my title said tolong jangan misinterpret antara ganggu dan ambil berat.
berbalik kepada cerita contoh, abu kene friendzone. the next day, kalau abu text senah
"...how was your day? dah makan? kalau belum jom i belanja lunch..."
as a friend, abu ambil berat. he just being nice, you know.
kalau dalam context abu sebagai ex atau orang yang dibenci, senah akan anggap macam abu telah menganggu hidup dia.
flirting itu lain. ambil berat itu lain. ganggu itu lain. please differentiate dy/dx.
my point is, jangan jadi bodoh. thats all. thank you.
tak, not yet, i do have a point actually, which is, again, jangan jadi bodoh. thats all thank you.
okay la aku tak nak entry ni jadi bullshit.
but seriously, like i said dont be stupid and what i really mean is that kalau dia kawan yang baik, dia always ambil berat. dia always wanted you to be happy. and honest and loyal dalam friendship. if you know that he/she really likes you and you dont feel the same way, then dont bagi harapan. ini la sebetulnya maksud bodoh aku tadi. 3 kali bodoh tu aku dah bagi terang.
do not wasting your fucking valuable time on someone that dont deserves it. and kalau kene friendzone, itu hint sebenarnya bodoh. basically ia bermaksud go away. oh dont get me wrong, tadi aku suruh positive now you said go away pula. yes go away. tapi go away to another person. ambil mistake kau tu bawa dan try dekat manusia lain. bunga bukan sekuntum. kalau dah habis semua bunga tanam lagi (maksud aku tunggu) dan ikan bukan sekor. lautan sangat luas. apalagi? perigi cari timba? eh dah lain, takleh (topic itu kita buka lain hari)
okay. thank you for reading my nonsense-random-bullshit thoughts. i do appreciate your time.
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