#6




//crush - beautiful//


#5



food < favourite person ❤


thoughts : 02:21


ive make tons of mistakes

and still am




im no perfect






but if you cant accept that then im not the one





please. go.

thoughts : 00:08


kalau sebulan penuh kau nangis,

hari yang mendatang pasti kau dapat tepis.





tapi aku sekuat itu?





aku sendiri ragu.


ah.





Sad-tember


3 weeks in a row

cry like a hopeless person in the world

every fkg night

without fail



thoughts : 18:47


all i could do was cry



like a baby...


thoughts: 03:26


it breaks my heart whenever this shits happened







im soooo "motivated" rn



the world starts laughing at me sebab bodoh sangat








APPLAUSE TO ALL OF YOU BIJAK PEOPLE


thoughts : 01:29


bagi aku, takde sesiapa yang boleh faham masalah kau melainkan dia pernah ada in that situation. thats why aku sangat memilih orang untuk share problems aku. but you must be special if i let that happen. 







anyway at this point i think im out of tears



thoughts : 01:14


i just wanna go home 

and leave everything 


#4



i just want you to know that

i hope you had an amazing day 

take care of yourself 







i miss you like crazy




thoughts : 00:36


kenapa bila aku buat semua nya salah? 

bagitahu salah tak bagitahu pun salah

kenapa nak kena pilih kasih? 

sebab aku tak bijak macam yang lain?

kalau macamtu kenapa invest dekat aku?

aku dah cakap aku tak nak

lepastu mengungkit??!???







"adil" sangat



paranoia 3


"he will be fine without you. he will be just fine"



paranoia 2


"tiada yang kisah, malah suka kau pergi"


paranoia 1


"kalau kau pergi nanti, kau sudah tidak menyusahkan sesiapa..."


thoughts : 01:52


selfish ke aku if i say ive missed the old me???







the one yang tak payah jaga hati orang





#3





i wish i could spend more time w you



thoughts : 18:12


lain kali diam je fy

bc youre so stupid. 

thats that. 




thoughts : 03:41


if i dont cry...


thats when i dont love you anymore



thoughts : 03:23


kalau lah aku boleh undur kan masa...




thoughts : 02:27


akhirnya kau pujuk diri kau sendiri fy

because you know no one will









macam selalu...





#2


"jangan nangis. kejap je. kita kerja kuat, lepastu beli rumah..."

"lepastu?"

"lepastu kita kawin."



thoughts : 04:55


when you trying so hard to not look stupid

but end up you realised that you are stupid

:')



thoughts : 21:59


you will never know the pain

you will never know what ive been thru everyfkgday

you will never know

#1


i still kinda trying to figure out what my life in here is like without him

i mean i know itll be next phase in his life but other than that, i hate everything bout it

i really hate it.





stranger 2.0


few mins after dm-ing me he tweet-ed...




what. the. fuck dude



stranger


sometimes stranger are better than friends






thoughts : 02:19


too stressed too depressed

fed up and give up





can i just end everything?


thoughts : 00:52


you just so stupid fy thats all


thoughts : 13:19


...of making me look stupid and worthless


thoughts : 0327



if you cant make me happy dont make me cry either

thoughts : 01:19


kalau aku boleh explain apa yang aku rasa sekarang ni...








whatever no one cares



thoughts : 03:41


idk what we talked about but this came out from me
"...im the best thing happened in your life!"

and dramatic him replied,
"and im not the best thing happened to you???"

so of course i told him no. of course i lied. because saja nak piss him off. classic me. 

but what i meant was 

"since my life is so miserable. yes. you are the only best thing that ever happened to me. and im so grateful for that. and i hope youll stay..."















umm



thoughts : 01:29




missing him :( 







but 


cant tell him



thoughts : 03:44


hobby : cries every night bfr bed 

thoughts : 03:03


"he aint got no time for you, fy. just leave him alone." 

him


everything bout him 😍









and thats really annoying



thoughts : 00:34


my heart are meant to be broken




fml 4.0


im never good at anything

literally sucks at everything i do

i'm embarrassment to everyone

im not perfect and will never be

okay? okay.




thoughts : 11:12


bad day.

bad mood.

bad decision.

hati berzikir


"imma tough girl

i can handle this on my own

wipe your tears fy

jangan jadi lembik!"

-hati

fml 3.0


why you so mean to me?!???

fml 2.0


bila dalam satu malam kau rasa semua orang benci kau

dari family, kawan, housemate, jiran, atok nenek

se. mua.

semua.


thoughts : 23:53


i hate the fact that you always busy


and im missing you

fml


3 am

youre sleeping

and im crying

thoughts : 22:21


kena jadi hipokrit untuk disukai ramai


thoughts : 22:22


i just dont trust your words anymore...

sorry





i just dont


thoughts : 01:24


kadang kita kena fikir tak semua orang hidup dia senang

tak semua orang dapat apa dia nak

bukan macam kau

tepuk meja terhidang segala




thoughts : 03:17


theres nothing wrong

...just happy.

thoughts : 00:33


got so many things to argue also i wanted to cry so bad but i cant bc i know i would end up like an idiot trying to talk 

so its better kan to just stfu


thoughts : 20:59


having mental breakdown...

and this time even worse 

fml

happy 23rd birthday, sayang!




happy birthday to my handsome boyfriend! ehem hmmm letting you know that i love you much easier to do but birthday wishes... i dont know... it can be little hard you know (and yes this took awhile haha!) anyway, i wished you another year of happiness and wonderful year (another year to tell how special you are *wink) and and may the force be with you on this birthday! i love you ;)






hati mati.


bila kau dah immune atau terbiasa dengan situation macam ni...




bahaya.



sebab kau tahu dan sedar

hati kau mati. 




just listen


i was hoping you could just listened 

be a good listener 

and tell me everything gonna be fine 

and let me talked shit 

bc we know im just upset i didnt meant any of that







is it too much to ask?



thoughts : 02:48


i think kan...

im just being too clingy and needy

and i should stop that attitudes before get any worse 








nota kaki :

stop la jadi clingy nak mampus. beshe beshe jelah nanti orang menyampah. 


thoughts : 10:59am


you just know when youre done


thoughts : 0236


once i start to get emotional, i usually get mad at myself

and that only makes me more emotional

and makes my eyes well up so easily 

and i hate it

i hate "the topic"

i hate it so f much



a stupid


when im w you, i felt so stupid im acting stupid i said stupid things like complete idiot and im smiling a lot... still, like an idiot






ughhhh


thoughts : 02:06


mencabar betul minggu ni

hati berzikir "kuat fy jangan nangis kuat kuat kuat jangan nangis"

"takpe fy boleh buat ni"

"sabar hati sabar jangan emotional sangat benda kecik je jangan terasa kuat fy kuat"









nangis juga akhirnya

thoughts : 09:44


setiap kali nak exam, mesti ada masalah lain. 

masalah yang tak boleh nak share 

yang tak boleh nak mengadu

tak boleh bagitahu dekat sesiapa

ugh fml

sakit otak


thoughts : 03:31


manusia ni ada satu sifat ;

bila rasa dah tak di hargai, dia tawar hati.




jadi, nasihat aku, bila orang buat apa apa dekat kau, tolong appreciate

walaupun rasa rimas

mungkin itu kali terakhir dia ber perangai begitu

sebab once dia jadi cold hearted, jangan kau tanya kenapa

hati - hati